Memories, they haunt, they inspire, they take us down and they make us high. But very few are clear what to do with them. Actually the question is, can we actually do something with them? Do we keep them, or do we throw them off? I am more concerned over those that are not in sync with the present. The memories that make you remember someone who is not there, who is not going to come back, who has chosen to go off and you have accepted it too.
Most of them that haunts are usually the good ones. But when they come, they leave that bad after taste, like the one you get form the artificial sweeteners, sweet when you are having, but after that….
Its difficult, they are not only memories related to the person who is not there alone; they are memories that both enjoyed together. They were part of our life. Lots of them are still part of the life. She is not there, but the remains of that life are there. Do you simply discard them? Make them disappear as she disappeared? But aren’t those something that you like too? Aren’t they something that you enjoyed, cherished and even now feel proud of? There are so many things scattered as the result of “the sum of a remainder of an unbalanced equation”. I can not part with them, as they too are very close to heart. But at they same time they keep linking me to the past, that I have left back. A history of 15 years that ended two years back.
Is it easy to just erase 15 years from your memory? Is it required to erase the memories? Should one live with them? Is it required to clean the slate – or should I change the slate?